Nicaragua Day 3: Aqua Resort, Emerald Coast nicaragua
Aqua Resort, Emerald Coast Nicaragua
I can’t believe I am currently sitting in a jungle bungalow on the Emerald Coast of Nicaragua. This place is a dream. Aqua Resort is the perfect place to hold a retreat, but I can’t help but laugh at all the little hiccups we’ve experienced today. The wifi has been down all day, there is no green juice as advertised, avocados are out of season, and Jen missed her flight, but there is really nothing that could bring us down. Not having wifi has actually been nice because Jake, Kathryn and I had a chance to bond and get to know each other. We did some cliffside yoga in the thunderstorm which was epic, had a yummy dinner at the restaurant, and then came back to the room and kicked it. Fingers crossed the wifi is back tomorrow though, because we’ve got shit to DO!
Okay but seriously, this resort is absolutely breathtaking. Our room is a short staircase away from the beach and I can hear the ocean waves flowing in and out. I had a chance to swim earlier this evening and the water was perfection. I love the big rolling waves that give you just the right amount of push and pull. And even though it’s pouring rain, the air still feels magical. There is so much room for the mind to expand in this cove, where distractions and time simply don’t exist. I can already tell I am going to have a breakthrough in writing and I am feeling more and more centered as time goes by. This retreat is a creative mecca for me and I can’t wait to see what comes out.
Tomorrow morning Jen Grisanti will arrive and I am dying to meet her. I think she has a lot of really wonderful insight and wisdom to share about the world of writing and how it can be used to express the inner workings of our minds. I am so excited to explore this medium and to deepen my relationship with myself. Just when I think I’ve reached a new depth, I take one more step and plummet even further into my soul. I know that I am going to leave here a changed person and that I will have exactly the armor I need to take on my next challenges. For now, I am going to get some rest and hopefully wake up to sun rays peeking through the windows.
Nicaragua Day 2: Tribal Hotel
Tribal Hotel, Granada
It is 7:43 am and I woke up with the rooster. I didn’t get much sleep last night out of excitement and stimulation. I have that problem sometimes… my body is tired and I’m ready to rest but I just get so excited about life that I can’t sleep! Yesterday was such a big day, so much was uncovered and aligned and I am beyond ready to embark on the next part of this Nicaraguan journey. Today we head to Aqua were we will be running the creative writing/yoga retreat. There are nine guests participating, plus Kathryn, Jen, Jake and myself. It feels good to be a part of the team and to feel like I am serving a purpose. I know that this is only the beginning of what will be the career I have been dreaming of.
We are sitting in the cabana sipping the most delicious black coffee I’ve ever had (I guess Nicaragua is known for their coffee, and I can see why), and enjoying some fresh squeezed papaya juice and pineapple. This hotel is beautiful and has been such a source of inspiration for me. The colors, the patterns, the decor… it’s incredible. I feel comfortable and relaxed, but also very empowered. Connecting with Kathryn has been such a blessing. We are both from Portland, although we didn’t know each other well until recently. This trip was a movement from the universe and its effortlessness puts my mind at ease. I can safely say I am exactly where I need to be, doing exactly what I need to be doing. In fact, I have reason to believe that every word, action, and experience that has taken place in my this far has been preparing me for these very moments.
Truthfully, that applies to everyone. We are all on a journey that is beyond our control, the only thing we have control over is the choices that we make which lead us toward the way we feel about our lives. Our choices, every little action and every opportunity we take (or don’t take) are what influence the direction of our life. You see, the universe speaks in paradox. What seems small is actually big, and what is big is actually very small. So it’s the small actions, those little daily choices, that shape and shift your life. It comes down to that tiny little voice that is always whispering the truth into your ear every time you are faced with a choice. That voice, while it may seems small as you life in this world of chaos, is actually the biggest power you have. Once you set the intention to live an intuition lead life, there is no going back. It is the ultimate addiction and should be your only addiction in life. In fact, it is the only way to overcome the slew of addictions we deal with in the human experience: stimulants, drugs, toxic relationships, negative self talk, control, food and body obsessions, etc. We are addicted to all things that misalign with our internal truth and the truth that lies beyond this physical world. It becomes more and more clear to me every day that this power I have unlocked lies within each and every one of us. We are all born into this experience with a mission to fulfill and it becomes a matter of battling the demons we’ve encountered, and developing faith in ourselves and our God source. If you don’t believe me, just wait. I will show you. I’m just getting started.
Nicaragua Day 1: Granada
Today I woke up at Tribal Hotel in Granada, Nicaragua. The rooster began to crow at 5 am, and although it was slightly obnoxious in the moment (I mean, they should have warned us!) I now appreciate the natural alarm. The earlier I wake up, the more adventure I can have. I am sipping on my first cup of coffee in 30 days alongside a glass of fresh squeezed watermelon juice. This trip is the beginning of the next chapter of my life, and it's perfection.
Kathryn and I are spending two nights in Granada before heading to the retreat in Playa Gigante. This is my first retreat working with her and it’s already a dream come true. Not only has Nicaragua bee on my vision board for the past five months, but I also have a mantra card that I pulled from a deck stating “I now create a wonderful new job” and that new job is beginning to come into fruition. Who would have thought I would land a job blogging for an elite yoga retreat company with one of the most incredible woman I’ve ever met. I can’t say I’m that surprised, considering what I know about the power of manifestation and vision, but visions always come true in ways that you could not have predicted. Although I will admit, I had a feeling about this one. Several months ago Kathryn asked me to transcribe an interview she held with Jen Grisanti, the screenwriting expert from Hollywood that is leading the writing portion of this retreat. I was intoxicated with her journey and her insight into life and the way life can be tied into novels, movies, and other forms of story telling. As I listened to their interview, knowing that I was to start writing my first book this year (and that Nicaragua was on my vision board) I thought that this retreat would be the ultimate experience for me. However, it was several thousand dollars and I was in no position to actually sign up, so I thought to myself, maybe, by some act of God, Kathryn will bring me on the retreat to work and blog. I released that thought into the universe and moved on with my life. It was a lovely thought, but I held no expectations. In fact, I was planning to attend Lightning in a Bottle that same week, so I wasn’t too disappointed at the idea of not going on the retreat.
Well, about four weeks ago, I was sitting outside of Canteen sipping on a juice in the sun wondering if my media application was going to be accepted to Lightning in a Bottle. I was in agony over not knowing, considering the festival was four weeks away and I was in desperate need of something to look forward to. I was discussing this turmoil I was feeling with a friend when I got a call from Kathryn. I hesitated answering the call for a moment, as not to be rude to Will, but quickly realized that if Kathryn was calling me it was for a reason. I picked up the phone:
“Katie! Girl!” I sensed excitement in her voice.
“Hey! What is up?! I was just thinking about you earlier today. You must have read my mind.”
“I’m not surprised.” She replied eagerly. "I want you to come to Nicaragua.”
All of my prayers had been answered in one sentence.
It was all uphill from there. I had been in the valley for so long, pushing my way through a treacherous winter wondering when life was going to start getting better. I knew it was coming, but it felt like I had been drug through the mud, snow, and ice for so long that the light was small and distant. But the moment Nicaragua fell into my lap, I knew my life was about to change. I felt glittery inside at the prospective career, travel opportunity, and relationship I was about to build with somebody who actually understands me. Another thing I had been praying for for months.
So, alas. Here I am. Sitting pool side in the sun in Nicaragua building my dream life and blogging about my journey. I would say “it doesn’t get much better than this,” but I know that this is only the beginning.